Disclosure: This is my "keep it real ebby.K" moment so please bare with me as I get my feelings out on this blog - thank you!
The Motivation
It's so easy to motivate everyone around you but when it comes to self motivation, that can become a major struggle; at least for me it can be.
By the grace of God, I started this wonderful movement - Classy Fit Gals - with the hopes, passion and vision of inspiring women to become FIT spiritually, emotionally and physically.
Publicly sharing my weight loss journey is not an easy task because there are times in the background when I'm crying, praying, asking for grace and strength to keep doing what I know I need to do for ME.
But guess what - I have some news for you -
the motivator needs motivating too!
There are times that I am struggling; can I keep it 100 with y'all? Your gal struggles at times and to be honest with you, if it wasn't for God, the support of my loved ones and the women from around the world who follow and support Classy Fit Gals who inspire me daily, I do not know where I would be.
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| Left: January 2013 | Right: October 2013 |
I know and realize that THIS - this weight loss journey - I am not doing for anyone else but ebby.K. If this journey was dependent on anything else but me, I would have quit a long time ago. It brings me joy and tears every time someone says "ebby, you motivate me" or "you inspire me" - that gives me chills.
The Reality of It All
I'm not out here trying to be popular, increase my followers, or make friends. The only thing I want to do is to inspire someone else to be great while I'm trying to make myself great. It's all about being better - aka: self improvement! It's a daily chore that starts from the inside, out.
I want someone to know if I, ebby.K can do it - SO CAN YOU!
I've realized that all of my sacrifices and the pain I've experienced this year (I've shared it here) was all designed to help someone else be great. It was all designed to have another woman tap into her greater self of who she is in order to become a better woman.
Every tear I cried, every sleepless night that I had over the past year, every prayer, every broken moment - it was all worth it. It was all worth it to know that a woman out there has been touched by my brokenness and sharing my brokenness was the pivotal point that started another woman's healing.
If what I do and who I am makes you want to be a better person, then my job is done - MISSION ACCOMPLISHED.
The Scale
I figured it's not all about the numbers, because the numbers will surely discourage you. I mean I wake up every morning and step on that scale. Some are like, "ebby, don't do that" but for me it's a reality check of what I did the day before. If I had a not so great day, it will show up on the scale. If I had a great day, it will show up on the scale.
My concern is not going on that scale and in the background I'm gaining rather than loosing so, going on that scale every morning is my mechanism of awareness to see where I am. I guess you can say that stems from years of not going on the scale only to find myself at 225 pounds. Facing the music at that point in my life was tough. For years, I avoided the scale because I was scared of that number. Now, by going on the scale every morning, it is my way of showing myself that I'm not scared of the number, I am aware of the number!
So, thank you for listening to me as I detox my feelings and share a weak moment with you.
I have come to the conclusion that at this point of my journey, I have to reprogram my mind of where I was when I first started at 225 pounds. In my mind, I'm starting all over again and my weight is now at the beginning stages and I have to do everything I did in February of this year right now in November in order to push forward and hit those goals.
I am determined that in 2014, I will be in the best shape of my life.
Signing off...
Your Classy Fit Gal...
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You are beautiful! I applaud you for sharing your journey and motivation to others! Keep pushing girl! You have made it so far! (stop looking at that scale every morning) You don't numbers to justify your healthier lifestyle. Just keep plowing ahead! Give yourself a quarterly goal to check on your weight, but the numbers will send you in a whirlwind. I'm on a weightloss journey to and I needed your encouraging words :) Thanks for making this platform for others to share the journey :)
ReplyDeleteThank you for your warm compliments - that means a lot. I know I can't stop now, I have to keep going. I appreciate your support and I go through this journey.
DeleteHey lady, I commented on your IG yesterday and I just finished reading your blog. I suggested facebook group.
ReplyDeleteFirst of all I want to tell you, thank you for sharing that with the world...because that is the truth of anyone who is going through a transformation/fitness journey. And it's awesome you have a great support system -- most people don't. You are motivating 1800+ people! A lot of people don't show their weak moments for fear it would change the way people view them but what it shows is that you are a real person and that's what people need to see because a fitness transformation is not overnight. It takes time to get to a healthy body and it also takes time to maintain it.
About the scale -- please please stop weighing yourself daily. You should set dates to measure and weigh yourself. I have an article that my coach created explaining why and I will try to post it later (if I remember -- I have memory problems).
About doing what you did Feb - Nov; it might not work unless you change it up. You have to trick your body to change it up (even day by day) so you can make progress. I have a girl who has lost about 60+ this year. About 40lbs was from July. I monitor her diet and also tell her what DVDs to do at home (I'm a Beachbody coach). Diet is very important. Not only eating clean but eating at the right times as well as eating for your Workout activity level. You can gain fat even if you a working out.
I'm not going to share my website nor email here because I'm not trying to sell my stuff through here but I would definitely be more than glad to help you get over the hump you are at.
Ps: keep going and keep pushing yourself. Don't think about it; just do it. The hardest thing to do is to completely fall off and start from square 1 with even more weight than what you had in the beginning. Which is what I have been struggling with all year. Don't let anything or anyone get in the way...not even yourself.